And one of the gifts is a book of Janusz Glowacki's "Good Night Dżerzi" or something like that.
Reading this book again and again I was thrown into the dark and this is a brothel, and that the septic tank in the village, and this at a lavish party, and this is a luxury penthouse and a restaurant, and that the block of flats in Russia. Torn thread can not rest until the world begins to uncover and reveals its true face. Or rather, people living in this world are proving to be extremely twisted and overcome by lust for power, money, sex, success. All actions, thoughts abide by the obsessions. Even if they pretend otherwise. Always the same: career, sex, money or power. If you will be a hero, who currently do not have that one goal in mind, and so it was certainly an episode in his life crazy, or is foolish and deceived by the next sucker. In fact, the people abide by their desires all, all are also willing to sacrifice and use. Nudge to the worst scams just to accomplish his objective. Deceive, exploit their dramatic survival just to achieve fame, money or power. Nothing out of obsessions does not count.
But what of that? Why is that as you read this book slowly, I feel better: I did not, however, a career, I'm not rich and famous which inevitably means that I am a decent man. I feel better than those rich and famous who have nothing but ćpają. My feeling is growing - after all, I have no talent, which is inseparably linked with the "kurwieniem up." I can freely strongly and unequivocally bad judge of all the failures. Oh how beautiful my colorless life! Although not quite, because one of the characters, what is decent pathetically transparent. Nearly as clear, that the current mainly by phone, anyway recorded on the answering machine. So I can live my catharsis. Because the hero is clean and I survive.
But what of that? More or less, I know that people can be disgusting, they are able to sell to various lusts, that they can spend a lifetime searching for more and more excitement. That the fear of emptiness and death will do the most bizarre and scary things. Occur in a talk show and talk about their secrets, betray each; deceive. They'll do anything. These are the people. So the mind works. But a small mind.
But I also know that this is not the whole truth. It is still a wonder world, the world of aspiration. Because there is something much more interesting, but this book has nothing to do. Abo almost nothing. And in this sense the book is boring. Because I say that life is a hideous and support the relevant history, it is basically boring. And when I was bored, boredom, porn in the book I found I wanted to put it, do not read to the end. But soon afterwards appeared, and other discovery. Namely, that in fact everyone, including bagienku, too, and there is the Absolute. Which is not in itself the Absolute Reality is manifest, but in the eye of the beholder. If you look at things from a proper perspective and selfishness, desires, podłościach, including all of Absolut in question can be seen. So I read further.
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